Thank you Heavenly Father for this blessed day.  Even as I endure these trials I am given rest from my sorrows that I have dug for myself. Much troubles I have faced in my freedom of choice and I have inflicted much pain with the same gift.  I have stumbled all my life yet I have been granted ten years of peace and joy in my children.  I have been shown great blessings yet I did not recognize the fullness of Heavenly Fathers blessings at the time therefore,  I did not partake in all that I have been given.  I look back and I wished I had loved more no matter the adversity I was facing.  And now in my current trials I tell myself to love more still even when I am being hated and it's so hard to do the right when my heart feels hate too.  My fear of consequence of being chastised by Heavenly Father caused me to choose the right and surrender my will and directing of my heart unto God.  I am saddened even when I obey His voice but soon I am clear in my conscious and I know the end result will be mercy and not misery.  I will not do what I desire and do what is required of me from my heavenly judge.  I've tried living life by my understanding and my wisdom.  And it was unbearable heartache and weariness I have endured.  Therefore my Father in heaven is my guiding path to living this mortal life and happiness ever since.  I have given my life worshiping Him and I have been given rest in my trials and deliverance through supplication and restored of joy in my children and in His daily guidance.  I am of my Father for in Him I feel love and peace as I partake of His words unto my soul.  I love Him and this I am sure with all of my heart and all of my being.